Life's Choices

I got up this morning and felt renewed in myself.  Things haven't been what I expected it to be lately and it was disappointing most of all to know I couldn't control any part of it.  The days past as if I had nothing to look forward to and as if someone came in the night and stole away my dreams....not knowing if I was able to take back what I wanted.  I felt time ran out on me and having that feeling made me breathless.  It didn't matter what anyone said, they weren't words that could helped me.  Maybe on my part, I chose not to.  But something in me wanted to find my own way out so I can believe again.

I read books after books, trying to make sense out of everything.  I even read The Secret, even when I knew what it was all about years ago already.  But they weren't words of comfort when you're in depths of despair.  I turned to the bible, it had stories of miracles and God's love and mercy for us.  To be honest, when you hear the words that repeats too many times, it feels like any ordinary day to hear it.  I wanted more inspiring words.

Then I read these words," I am a piece of God, a Divine individualized expression of God.  I am worthy and deserving of all that God is and all that flows into my life.  The abundance I desire is on its way and I will do everything I can to avoid blocking and resisting this Divinely Inspired Flow" (Wayne Dyer). It was a breath of fresh air, and it touched my heart to know I'm part of something bigger than myself.  That nothing I do is marked as failed, I can only produce results. 

But even knowing that everything happens as it is supposed to, that there are no accidents, and that we are precisely where we are supposed to be, doing what we are supposed to do.  Knowing that nothing is random, and that all of life is purposeful.  To forgive is a discipline of self-love. And that I run my own life at my own pace on the path I've chosen, and I shouldn't expect anyone else to be where I am.  This is the essense of detachment.

Dwayne Dyer wrote," I choose to believe that series of events like these are part of this universal principle called synchronicity.  A collaboration with fate, in which each of us makes choices within a larger context in which it is all perfect. ..... Synchronicity is the basis for allowing these forces to meet and work for us in our life, but we must say "yes" to life.  One "No" response anywhere walong the path stops the flow of energy.  Every single positive response in life allows the next one to flow, not as a cause and effect, but as a continuation of the energy that is in each of us and everything else in the universe....."

Everything In Its Time

There are times when I feel things are going so crazy around me, and even when someone explains the 'why' and 'therefore's, my ears turn dead to such words.  Especially when you attempt to do everything right but then ironically, it turns out into something you never wanted it to be.  And these really are the times when I don't want to hear," It's okay, you'll be fine".  Well, my heart just wants to scream, " I'm not fine, so don't tell me to be fine when my heart's falling to pieces." And just when I wondered where I will get the strength to go through the days ahead, I came across this one song that made the difference for the days ahead.

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead

How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round


Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all


I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign


Everything in its time


I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign


'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see


The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign


Everything in its time
Everything in its time

By Corrinne May 2005



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My Heart Goes Out To You..

These are just two pictures of the survivors in Japan after the earthquake and tsunami that had claimed too many other lives.  The first picture above is a photo of a four-month-old baby girl on the third day after the earthquake, found by the Japan's self defence forces.  They call her " small miracle".

I have taken a bit of 'a break' from blogging in the last few months and usually when I do blog, it's only because I feel compassionate and compelled to say what I do think.  Since the disaster that has struck Japan, there has been comments and remarks on ' why the earthquake and tsunami hit 'big' time in Japan '.

And these were the remarks," Japan had it coming.....it's because of what they did to Pearl Harbour." And another said, " It was Japan's karma to go through this (i.e the tsunami and earthquake)...because of the fishermen whale killings "

Well, I'm pretty sure if the people who made this remarks had one of their relatives or loved ones been in Japan's disaster, would they still say their loved ones deserve to die?  And let me put this to you, what kind of person are you to think such things and still pray for the safety of your children when you place such unkindness to another?  How could you pray for peace around the world or your own country when you already have such tainted thoughts of bitterness?  Are you so sure and convinced that your life is so perfect you've never done no wrong? I am sure if you had counted your karma, whether it be small or big, you be paying 'big' time to reclaim your innocence. 

I don't believe that the wrong doings of another will be tainted on the person standing next to it.  I don't believe that God would be so bitter as to hold such anger to revenge innocent lives lost.  What kind of a Father or God would he be if he be as so unforgiving when any religion would have preach about forgiveness?  Where is the compassion or faith in good things?  Where is the peace if you have no peace in the words that you speak? Is your love for others so limited that you are blind to see others suffering?  Who are we to judge?

I believe that we as human beings are more capable of so much more love if we find our trust and tear down our barriers of mistrust.  I believe that every life is still precious and no innocent lives should go unnoticed and undeservingly punished when there is no just cause.  Don't bother about refraining from using plastic bags to save the earth when you don't have compassion for innocent lives.

"Keep your thoughts positive because your thoughts become your words. Keep your words positive because your words become your behavior. Keep your behavior positive because your behavior becomes your habits. Keep your habits positive because your habits become your values. Keep your values positive because your values become your destiny."

"An eye for an eye will only make the whole world blind."


— Mahatma Gandhi

If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.


Mother Teresa

At the end of the day, we are all 'one'.....and I can only hope and pray we find peace within ourselves and our homes ...showing kindness where it's needed and love whenever you can....Om Shanti